Feeling stuck

I am currently really battling my feelings about my weight. After recently losing 30 lbs I have over the last few months gained almost every bit of it back. Now--everyone tells me not to worry, that I should not stress about weight as I am doing something so much more important right now and to just relax.

Well--relaxing is making my ASS FAT!! And can I diet--no! Because I am going through round 3 this week. Can I start a brand new exercise routine? NO---because when you get pregnant you are supposed to stay at the activity level you have been at--which has pretty much been close to zero the last few months.

So what do I do? What I want to do is just lay in bed and eat bon bons even though I would feel terrible about it afterwards. Or I want to just start doing some crazy diet and training to become super-model-bodyish! But I can't do that.

So I am struggling tonight more than most nights with this. Even though I know that in the grand scheme of life this is NOT the biggest challenge I will face.

Love, S